We received the BEST news this weekend! Cheri Campbell emailed us our delivery date! September 5th was to be the date that we finally got to meet our little guy. But last night as we were driving home, Brad got a phone call from Cheri. They needed to change our delivery date, to August 29th! We are so excited! Sure no problem, we can handle getting Kai a week earlier! I am sure this date might change again, but that's OK. Good things come to those who wait, right??
The funny thing is I got a message through Facebook from Cheri. The email address she had for us was not the right one. She said she was trying to get a hold of us to schedule our delivery and she needed to know if any dates were bad in the Aug/Sept time frame. I told Brad very excitedly about the message. I looked at him and said "There isn't anything in that time frame that we can't change is there?!" He started cracking up. Of course not. What could be more important than Kai coming? Absolutely nothing!
This was one of many awesome things that happened this weekend. Brad's family was in from out of town and we were all enjoying the company of each other.
This leads me to the tough part of the weekend. Brad's blood sugars were SUPER high. We are talking consistently 300 - 400 range. He has never run highs like that consecutively for multiple days. It was very troubling to him. It made him really angry and he feels helpless because he would give a correction for the high and it would not budge.
I can tell you it is tough being the wife of a Type 1. Everyone hears about the highs and lows and what they do to a diabetic. But there are also the emotional pieces of diabetes that you don't hear about. The "why do I have this disease", "why am I running high when I haven't eaten anything", "are they ever going to find a cure", "am I going to die because of this disease?"
So no only do you have to deal with treating the lows or highs, you have to help pull them out of this thinking. It can be very tough and depressing. Brad had so much anger this weekend and we talked about it. He was upset because of the highs. I cannot blame him. As we talked through it all, I told him that he is not going to die because of one weekend where his blood sugars were high. He just looked at me and said "You don't understand how I am feeling. You don't know what it is like for me on my side. I am the one who has this." I can understand how he feels. I can even sympathise, but he is right, I don't have diabetes and I don't know how he is feeling.
Kai will not only be helping with tighter glycemic control, he is going to be helping combat those feelings of hopelessness, that there is never going to be a cure. This is how amazing these dogs are. This is why I am willing to raise $20,000 for Kai. This is why Kai is so important to us and we haven't even met him yet. He is going to help us fight back against this silent disability.
I have started calling Kai our super hero with paws. He is going to be a super hero for Brad. Always looking out for him, loving him and supporting him through it all. I want this for Brad so much and I am just so happy it is happening.
Tiffany
Our mission is to fight back against Type 1 Diabetes with the help of Service Dogs by Warren Retrievers. FIGHTING TYPE 1 DIABETES
Wow, Tiff, what an amazing post. You both are so strong.... I can only imagine how hard the days and weeks are. I thank you so much for being so strong for him, for loving him and really holding him up when he feels like falling. I can sense the relief you feel when you write about Kai. I will be so happy when he comes and you get to feel that relief and security for real. Ultimately, we are still fervently praying for a cure and fast. Kai is going to be a wonderful working dog; a cure would give him and all of you a much needed day off!!!!
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